of course i still get jealous.

but i don't need your approval anymore. there are people around me who actually care for things i've done, which means so much more than you dissuading me from pursuing things you felt had no meaning. last night i was talking to a friend about how i kickstarted pretty much anything music-related in tembusu by starting treblemakers, by lobbying for and settling the jamming room, by setting up music hub, by organising most of the open mics on my own, by helping out with grease not just acting/singing/dancing but training them as well. with guitar ensemble and all the notes i've gotten from people telling me i've helped them be a better guitarist.

you know what that friend said? 'wow, i think you're amazing, i wish i could do just some of those things. it seems you did it well too'.

what did you say? that everything i did was a waste of time.